Space, Fire, and Someone Else's Sun

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Space, Fire, and Someone Else's Sun

One year ago today, my best four legged friend of 13 years left her fluffy Pomeranian body.  Skylar Blue now guides me from beyond the veils and limitations of the physical form, and in this way she and I are closer than we have ever been.  Though I miss her deeply, her selfless choice to transition allowed me the space and permission I needed to fully expand into and embark on my soul’s aligned path and mission.  Shortly after her passing, Spirit called me out West, and while the journey has not always been one of ease, it has been one of grace, gratitude, surrender, and love.  I am finally grasping the concept of being an integral and at the same time an utterly insignificant piece of a MASSIVE multidimensional puzzle!

It has taken many timelines of suffering, rivers of tears shed, several traumas, and multiple trials, countless transmissions, a ton of incredibly gifted and patient teachers, as well as many perceived failures to finally shed enough veils in order to realize that it isn’t about me.  It’s about the Collective.  It is about finding a way to show up for ourselves and for one another that allows us to grow collectively as a unified population so we may thrive on this planet.  It’s about choosing love and forgiveness over codependency and blame.  It’s about loving so furiously and with such intention that we are willing to dissolve all parts of who we have always perceived ourselves to be so that we may continuously be reborn in every expression.  It’s about healing with each other, for each other. 

All that said, I have finally gotten out of my own way to receive my greatest creative expressions to date, and I’m excited to share them with all who are available to receive!  Today, in Skylar’s memory and honor, I share the music!  Space, Fire, and Someone Else’s Sun is a Divine transmission that came through as a gift for Mother Earth and her children.  It is a vibrational story of what came from my personal awakening; A record capturing my most authentic, transparent, and vulnerable understanding of who we are as human BEings living a Spiritual experience.

This album is for anyone, and at the same time, it’s for the misfits…For those of us who sometimes sing out of tune, and yet we sing our heart’s truth anyway.  For those of us who may seem a bit out of sync with the rest, and yet we play and dance our hearts wide open! And it’s for those who never judge us for BEing this way. It’s for the jacks of all trades, and masters of none. For those who are highly sensitive, intuitive, and “different” and for those who always love us without judgement for being just that. This music is a permission slip to color outside of the lines, and to feel free to show up in a way other than how society perceives as “normal”.  To the inner child that has suffered in silence…To the wounded masculine and wounded feminine within each and every one of us…To the brightest and purest aspects within, and at the same time, for the deepest and darkest… May this music inspire all of the perfectly imperfect parts of ourSelves to come together through integration and nonjudgement in order to find wholeness once again.

Thank you to all of my teachers, students, family, and friends for learning and teaching with me.  Your magnificent reflections of the true Guru within, each in your own individual way, assisted me in opening up to layers of gratitude, creativity and loving potential I didn’t before realize were possible.

And without further ado, I wish to invite you into the first transmission that started it all, “We Are Love”.  The pre-sale of the full album and official single release will begin on 4/11, and for the time being, my gift to you, is access to the first single today! This album will be released under my spiritual name, Ashtani Akshagni. I understand for some, this may feel like a lot to take in, and I understand that not everyone is available to receive what it is being said here and through this music…For those who are available, I’m so excited to dance and play with you. For everyone else, I invite you to get curious and check out this song. There’s nothing to lose, and so much to gain! I honor you and your path regardless and thank you for your presence on this planet with us at this time of great awakenings! Click the audio file above to listen to the first single, “We Are Love” for free any time!

Also available for your free streaming pleasure at Soundcloud below!

 

 

 

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How to move through loss and grief with ease and grace...

How to move through loss and grief with ease and grace...

Loss and grief are inevitable in our human existence, but we do not have to suffer endlessly as a result of them. Here is how I experienced the grief process and how to peacefully transition through it with as much ease and grace as possible.

The Curious Thing Called Life

The Curious Thing Called Life

The Curious Thing Called Life

Life is a curious thing.  Life itself has no emotion.  It doesn’t ask permission before it throws you a curveball.  It doesn’t check in with you to make sure you’re available for the next giant wrench it plans to throw in your happily spinning gears.  It’s an endless disruption of flow until the final disruption; and then, if you haven’t learned all the lessons your soul needed to learn, life brings you back for more.  Samsara, the Buddhists call it; birth, life, and death.  An endless wheel that we ride on whether we feel available for it or not.  We don’t get a choice in the matter, but we do, however, get a choice in how we show up on this ride. 

It’s painful, life.  It’s nothing personal, but some choose to take it that way.  Some choose to see their life is an endless stream of personal attacks.  “The universe is out to get me” some say, and may hold as their “truth”, and the “truth” is, it’s true!  The universe IS out to get those people.  According to the wisest and most ancient philosophies of mankind, we are each a microcosm of the macrocosm.   So, that means each of us is a tiny universe within the macrocosmic great universe.  So when one CHOOSES to hold the belief system that “The universe is out to get me”, they are, as an individual universe within the collective cosmic universe, CHOOSING to be “out to get themselves”.  They aren’t wrong, because what they believe becomes their reality. 

The same holds true for the opposite view point.  Individuals who hold the belief system of, “The universe is holding and caring for me” are, as microcosms of the macrocosm, holding and caring for themselves.  Our beliefs truly shape our reality, and so, in this curious, spinning, curveball ridden wheel called life, we may not get a choice in WHAT we experience along the way.  But we DO get a choice in HOW we experience the experience, and this choice creates our truth, our reality. 

In every moment we are given a precious opportunity to create the life we wish to exist in.  On a conscious level, we may not get to choose the ride we’re riding, but we can choose to close our eyes and scream in fear of what may be around the next turn, or we can throw our hands up, eyes wide open, and laugh hysterically in the face of uncertainty.   Eyes tightly closed hide in the safety of darkness, but living in the safety of darkness is dangerous as darkness does not allow us to see the beauty in each lesson we’re here to learn.  And until we learn all the lessons, you can bet life’s coming for you!  So buckle up!  Open your eyes, let in the light, and choose whatever truth serves your highest expression!  You are safe.  You are held.  You are loved. 

Patterns

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Patterns

Patterns; they shape our world.  They shape our minds.  They shape our existence.  They can be beautiful and mysterious, and without them the world as we know it could not have come to be.  But what happens when patterns begin to dictate who we are and how we show up in our lives? 

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My Mirror

My Mirror

When I look into the mirror

Wicked Game

So, as everyone may be aware, I try to keep my posts on the positive side; however, in light of the coming full moon and powerful eclipse that is shining light into dark corners and casting shadows over light, I felt called to share a part of myself that I feel is important to put on display as to express my full authenticity. You see, over the past few years I have completely changed just about every aspect of my life and outlook. The person that I show up as in times of darkness these days is completely different from the person that would have shown up just 4 or 5 years ago.

I get a lot of friends, family, students, and clients coming to me and seeking guidance and advice around the current state of our country, and in those moments I show up exactly how I am needed and called to. I show up with light and love in my heart and on my mind. In my heart, I know light triumphs over darkness, but it’s important for me to be honest and authentic in my life; and so, I must confess that there is a part of my soul that is conflicted around the unconditional love that I am feeling in my heart toward certain people.

The beliefs, the words, the actions, the intentions that they hold as their truth are so vastly outside what I believe to be right and pure, yet my heart sees that they too are just pure souls living a human existence who have yet to see the light within their own hearts. The old aspects of my psyche argue with the knowing and trust within my soul, and it’s a daily struggle. I cannot and will not lie and say that I have this all figured out. There are days where the bigger picture is difficult to find, and I’m just so grateful for my faith, my yoga, and my meditation practice, as they keep the old tendencies of my mind from taking control from the overdrive of love that floods from this heart.

And on the days where no matter how hard I try, I can’t shake that underlying “yucky feeling”, I choose to channel it in a creative way rather than gossip or fester in an unhealthy manner such as reading social media or watching the news. Today was one of those days that I needed to be creative. This song came on and reminded me of our current leader, his followers, and all those who oppose him by spreading such hateful things against him and his followers. In my heart I love them all, but in my mind I can’t wrap my head around the cloud of hate and counterintuitive energies that surround it all. Here is what came from my confliction. May we all find a healthy and constructive way to make peace within the midst of chaos. It is more important now than ever to find constructive ways to channel our confusion and inner conflict rather than use them in a destructive manner. Nobody is perfect, but let's do our best to create beauty from chaos and confusion! Sending you ALL blessings and love.

A journey through the ashes of 2016

I did this set at an open mic the other night, and wanted to share it with you.  I hope you enjoy this journey through the ashes of my 2016 life.  To say I was completely transformed would be an understatement.  Lots of love, gratitude, and many blessings to you and yours.  Namaste.

Marma Therapy changed my life...

Marma Therapy changed my life...

Ahhhh...Marma therapy...I'm inclined to use the word "magical" to describe it, but there is no "magic" involved. 

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Be the light you wish to see…When darkness seems imminent and all pervasive, shine brighter…When hate seems invasive, love deeper…When humor seems impossible to muster, laugher harder…WE must raise the vibration from fear and hate to love, regardless of the circumstances…WE must be the change…Nobody else can do it for us…It starts with us…You and me…Let’s do this! Let’s love furiously and shine like never before! Who’s with me?

Be the light you wish to see…When darkness seems imminent and all pervasive, shine brighter…When hate seems invasive, love deeper…When humor seems impossible to muster, laugher harder…WE must raise the vibration from fear and hate to love, regardless of the circumstances…WE must be the change…Nobody else can do it for us…It starts with us…You and me…Let’s do this! Let’s love furiously and shine like never before! Who’s with me?

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