One year ago now, I was faced with a
difficult choice…I could believe what Western medicine had been telling me
for over 15 years and continue taking medication that numbed my mind and
spirit…Or, I could defy the label of Bipolar disorder once and for all, and end
my relationship with prescription drugs.  One year ago now, after many
months of slow, cautious, and deliberate tapering, I took my last prescription
pill…I will not lie and say it has been easy…I will not lie and say it’s not
a daily struggle…I will not pretend that everything is sunshine and roses and I’m
perfect now.    My friends, I struggle,
just like you and everyone else.  I still
have days where getting out of bed wouldn’t be my first choice.  I still have moments when I think to myself, “What
the hell am I doing?  Who am I
kidding?  I’m not strong enough to do
this on my own!”  But then, I think about
that tortured, depressed, fearful young woman; battered and broken, and often
covered with self-inflicted cuts and bruises due to overwhelming amounts of
pain and self-hate.  And I look to my
left and right and see two beautiful dogs excited to start their day at my side…I
sit up from my comfy bed, in my safe and warm home with a roof over my head…I do
some stretching which reminds me of the yoga I’m about to go practice and later
teach to other beautiful souls, and an overpowering sense of gratitude comes
over my being when I realize, I’m not that tortured soul I once was.  I AM strong enough to do this.  And I’m NOT on my own, because I have amazing
friends, family, and animals that ONLY wish to see my success in this life…  And
so I get up, and I take on the world one day at a time.  And I want to tell you something…If I can do
this, YOU can do this.  YOU may not
believe in YOU, but SOMEONE believes in you. 
  I   believe in you.  You may not
love you, but SOMEONE loves you.    I   love
you!  You may not SEE you, but someone
sees you.    I   see you!  My friend, this life isn’t easy.  In fact, it’s damn hard at times!  But those struggles truly do make you
stronger….And the changes you are forced to make, make you wiser…And happiness
has a way of taking its sweet time, but my friend, you’ll find it!  It’s waiting for you; your happiness, that
is.  And what’s funny is, it usually
comes the moment you stop looking for it, and just start living in each moment
as if that’s all you have…Because each moment IS all we have.    So, when it feels like all life wants to do
is kick you around, just harness your inner Kevin Bacon and say, “Thank you
sir!  May I have another?”.  Each kick that life gives you is molding you
into the awesome, strong, brave, unstoppable force that you must become!  TRUST that force…You ARE that force, whether
you feel it or not, it’s inside you growing with each breath.  If I can do it, YOU can do it….This I promise…This
is the truth.  So many blessings, and so
much love to you all.  Have a beautiful
weekend.  Namaste.

One year ago now, I was faced with a difficult choice…I could believe what Western medicine had been telling me for over 15 years and continue taking medication that numbed my mind and spirit…Or, I could defy the label of Bipolar disorder once and for all, and end my relationship with prescription drugs.  One year ago now, after many months of slow, cautious, and deliberate tapering, I took my last prescription pill…I will not lie and say it has been easy…I will not lie and say it’s not a daily struggle…I will not pretend that everything is sunshine and roses and I’m perfect now.  

My friends, I struggle, just like you and everyone else.  I still have days where getting out of bed wouldn’t be my first choice.  I still have moments when I think to myself, “What the hell am I doing?  Who am I kidding?  I’m not strong enough to do this on my own!”  But then, I think about that tortured, depressed, fearful young woman; battered and broken, and often covered with self-inflicted cuts and bruises due to overwhelming amounts of pain and self-hate.  And I look to my left and right and see two beautiful dogs excited to start their day at my side…I sit up from my comfy bed, in my safe and warm home with a roof over my head…I do some stretching which reminds me of the yoga I’m about to go practice and later teach to other beautiful souls, and an overpowering sense of gratitude comes over my being when I realize, I’m not that tortured soul I once was.  I AM strong enough to do this.  And I’m NOT on my own, because I have amazing friends, family, and animals that ONLY wish to see my success in this life…

And so I get up, and I take on the world one day at a time.  And I want to tell you something…If I can do this, YOU can do this.  YOU may not believe in YOU, but SOMEONE believes in you. I believe in you.  You may not love you, but SOMEONE loves you.  I love you!  You may not SEE you, but someone sees you.  I see you!  My friend, this life isn’t easy.  In fact, it’s damn hard at times!  But those struggles truly do make you stronger….And the changes you are forced to make, make you wiser…And happiness has a way of taking its sweet time, but my friend, you’ll find it!  It’s waiting for you; your happiness, that is.  And what’s funny is, it usually comes the moment you stop looking for it, and just start living in each moment as if that’s all you have…Because each moment IS all we have.  

So, when it feels like all life wants to do is kick you around, just harness your inner Kevin Bacon and say, “Thank you sir!  May I have another?”.  Each kick that life gives you is molding you into the awesome, strong, brave, unstoppable force that you must become!  TRUST that force…You ARE that force, whether you feel it or not, it’s inside you growing with each breath.  If I can do it, YOU can do it….This I promise…This is the truth.  So many blessings, and so much love to you all.  Have a beautiful weekend.  Namaste.

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